Firstly thank you for reading my previous two blogs I hope it helps someone or shine some light on mental health.
After the longest weekend of my life trying my hardest to understand what was happening to me I finally gave in and took advice from my parents and my ex wife and got a doctors appointment for Monday (remember when you could get a same day appointments) still not thinking I needed to see a doctor I decided to do it to keep everyone else happy and stop them moaning at me, but they weren’t moaning they were worried and concerned, I was still feeling no better sat in the waiting room for what felt like a life time finally my name was called walked into the doctors room and immediately burst into tears not being able to speak or explain how I was feeling luckily for me my ex wife was there to guide me and help with the enormous pressure that was involved in this process, after a while I managed to calm myself enough to try to explain what was going on inside my head.
WOW how good it felt to open up and talk to someone that wasn’t judging me or had an ulterior motive. I found it incredibly easy to talk to the doctor and explain my thoughts and feelings, now I know not everyone is the same and some find it harder than others but seeing the doctor is the best thing I have ever done she made me feel at ease and I trusted her I felt she understood me, I had never seen this particular doctor before and for the life of me I cant remember her bloody name lol but for me I just clicked with her and I will be eternally grateful for our first meeting she is the one that helped me on my 1st step to understanding what was wrong and not only that she made me realise it’s ok to be down upset and to have a cry once you’ve realised that as a man then and only then can you move on and try to combat your thoughts a feelings.
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